Horrible horrible horrible-ness! I have a mustache! I don't know what to do--apparantly, when you are on "The Pill," you can start to get a darker upper lip. There's nothing you can do about it--the hairs aren't making it darker, and even if you pluck all the hairs away, the skin in that area is still darker than the rest.
So I am now resolved to go buy make up for the first time. It has gotten to the point where I really can't stand looking in the mirror.
Aw, now I am all grown up, buying make up and growing a mustache.
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Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Why It's Hard to Believe
(i though i had deleted this post accidentally a week ago but it was magically saved!)
Why is it hard to believe in God? It's simple--because we keep focusing on the things we do (vs. the things He does) and the bad things that keep happening.
Despite all the wonderful things that God has blessed me with (marriage, an incredible husband, law school, friends, family...) it's still so hard to not get caught up in everything else that goes wrong. And once those things go wrong, bad memories creep up and everything spirals downwards.
Recently, it has been hard not to think about all the things that make it hard for me to believe in God. Actually, by recently I mean for awhile. That is because I am selfish and self-pitying. I think about the lives He's taken away, my broken family, seemingly hopeless situations...
It's almost like when Al and I get annoyed at each other for not doing chores or helping out around the apartment--we focus (or at least I do) on what we have done individually. Our focus on ourselves is so intense that we blind ourselves into forgetting all the other things the other one has done. All we have to do to remedy the situation is to turn our focus away from ourselves and instead look to each other first.
In the same way, I know that I need to look to Christ and stop focusing on myself.
Why is it hard to believe in God? It's simple--because we keep focusing on the things we do (vs. the things He does) and the bad things that keep happening.
Despite all the wonderful things that God has blessed me with (marriage, an incredible husband, law school, friends, family...) it's still so hard to not get caught up in everything else that goes wrong. And once those things go wrong, bad memories creep up and everything spirals downwards.
Recently, it has been hard not to think about all the things that make it hard for me to believe in God. Actually, by recently I mean for awhile. That is because I am selfish and self-pitying. I think about the lives He's taken away, my broken family, seemingly hopeless situations...
It's almost like when Al and I get annoyed at each other for not doing chores or helping out around the apartment--we focus (or at least I do) on what we have done individually. Our focus on ourselves is so intense that we blind ourselves into forgetting all the other things the other one has done. All we have to do to remedy the situation is to turn our focus away from ourselves and instead look to each other first.
In the same way, I know that I need to look to Christ and stop focusing on myself.
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
My Hubby
Last night, Al reaches for a laffy taffy and says, "I'm going to eat a strawbert."
Ah hahahahahaha! Why is that so funny? I couldn't stop laughing for so long and Al had to shush me lest I disturb our upstairs neighbor. =)
(I think it was because it sounded like "Albert." "Albert is eating a strawbert." hehehhee!!!")
It's so funny to think that we are a married couple now! A married couple of two months. All that we are going through marks the beginning of our family, and that is exciting to me. I am overwhelmed by the blessing that God has given me. There are some days where I almost can't take how much I love Al and how crazy I am about him.
A little while ago, we finished watching season 4 of House and I couldn't stop crying because of the last episode. I don't know why I am so emotional--when something touches me inside and triggers memories or thoughts, the tears automatically respond and there's really nothing that I can do. This time, the mere thought of the chance of losing Al at all just made me feel so sad. In fact, it's probably best that I stop writing now because I'm already tearing up! It made me think of how much safer it would be--to never get too close to another person so that you would never have to feel the pains of sadness when God gets them away. But then you would miss out on the incredible and indescribable happiness you feel when you are together. I would never want to miss out on that--because Al is the only person in the world who can make me laugh until I can't breathe just by saying one word. =)
Ah hahahahahaha! Why is that so funny? I couldn't stop laughing for so long and Al had to shush me lest I disturb our upstairs neighbor. =)
(I think it was because it sounded like "Albert." "Albert is eating a strawbert." hehehhee!!!")
It's so funny to think that we are a married couple now! A married couple of two months. All that we are going through marks the beginning of our family, and that is exciting to me. I am overwhelmed by the blessing that God has given me. There are some days where I almost can't take how much I love Al and how crazy I am about him.
A little while ago, we finished watching season 4 of House and I couldn't stop crying because of the last episode. I don't know why I am so emotional--when something touches me inside and triggers memories or thoughts, the tears automatically respond and there's really nothing that I can do. This time, the mere thought of the chance of losing Al at all just made me feel so sad. In fact, it's probably best that I stop writing now because I'm already tearing up! It made me think of how much safer it would be--to never get too close to another person so that you would never have to feel the pains of sadness when God gets them away. But then you would miss out on the incredible and indescribable happiness you feel when you are together. I would never want to miss out on that--because Al is the only person in the world who can make me laugh until I can't breathe just by saying one word. =)