Stupid Knee

Dear Diary,

On Sunday I twisted my knee playing football! UGH! Yes, and it was the same knee that I tore 5 years ago. This week has been really frustrating--for the first half my knee was really swollen and I couldn't walk or drive. All the memories associated with the first time I tore my ACL just flooded back and it was so frustrating and I cried.

But I have no reason to be so sad because I have such a wonderful husband! Al drove me everywhere--even to class at night and to the doctor's office. He cooked dinner for me, and carried me around everywhere. And now my knee is getting better--I can walk on it and start moving it around thanks to physical therapy.

So this made me think of our marriage so far and all the things that make it special.

Here is one of my favorites:

On our honeymoon, Al and I are driving back to our hotel in Maui. I get the hiccups so I say, "I have the hiccups." A couple seconds of silence and then Al suddenly goes, "AHHH!" Which totally scares me and makes me scream and voila--hiccups are gone!

Some other things that Al likes to do:
- When I go to give him a hug when he comes home from work, Al will throw something in my face to distract me and run away.
- Same scenario as above except this time I chase him, and he tries to jump over the couch but trips and falls on his face
- He pretends to help me up out of bed and keeps pushing me back down.
- He'll give me a hug and then lean with all of his weight on me so then I have to push him back up to balance him. Not my favorite game--and usually we end up falling.

That's a good start for now--I will write about more games later that we play. Haha.

Now I'm in a great mood for the day!! =)

Happy Friday everyone!

I have a Stache!!!!

Horrible horrible horrible-ness! I have a mustache! I don't know what to do--apparantly, when you are on "The Pill," you can start to get a darker upper lip. There's nothing you can do about it--the hairs aren't making it darker, and even if you pluck all the hairs away, the skin in that area is still darker than the rest.

So I am now resolved to go buy make up for the first time. It has gotten to the point where I really can't stand looking in the mirror.

Aw, now I am all grown up, buying make up and growing a mustache.

Why It's Hard to Believe

(i though i had deleted this post accidentally a week ago but it was magically saved!)

Why is it hard to believe in God? It's simple--because we keep focusing on the things we do (vs. the things He does) and the bad things that keep happening.

Despite all the wonderful things that God has blessed me with (marriage, an incredible husband, law school, friends, family...) it's still so hard to not get caught up in everything else that goes wrong. And once those things go wrong, bad memories creep up and everything spirals downwards.

Recently, it has been hard not to think about all the things that make it hard for me to believe in God. Actually, by recently I mean for awhile. That is because I am selfish and self-pitying. I think about the lives He's taken away, my broken family, seemingly hopeless situations...

It's almost like when Al and I get annoyed at each other for not doing chores or helping out around the apartment--we focus (or at least I do) on what we have done individually. Our focus on ourselves is so intense that we blind ourselves into forgetting all the other things the other one has done. All we have to do to remedy the situation is to turn our focus away from ourselves and instead look to each other first.

In the same way, I know that I need to look to Christ and stop focusing on myself.

My Hubby

Last night, Al reaches for a laffy taffy and says, "I'm going to eat a strawbert."

Ah hahahahahaha! Why is that so funny? I couldn't stop laughing for so long and Al had to shush me lest I disturb our upstairs neighbor. =)

(I think it was because it sounded like "Albert." "Albert is eating a strawbert." hehehhee!!!")

It's so funny to think that we are a married couple now! A married couple of two months. All that we are going through marks the beginning of our family, and that is exciting to me. I am overwhelmed by the blessing that God has given me. There are some days where I almost can't take how much I love Al and how crazy I am about him.

A little while ago, we finished watching season 4 of House and I couldn't stop crying because of the last episode. I don't know why I am so emotional--when something touches me inside and triggers memories or thoughts, the tears automatically respond and there's really nothing that I can do. This time, the mere thought of the chance of losing Al at all just made me feel so sad. In fact, it's probably best that I stop writing now because I'm already tearing up! It made me think of how much safer it would be--to never get too close to another person so that you would never have to feel the pains of sadness when God gets them away. But then you would miss out on the incredible and indescribable happiness you feel when you are together. I would never want to miss out on that--because Al is the only person in the world who can make me laugh until I can't breathe just by saying one word. =)

Dear Diary - Day 1

So apparently I now type much faster than I write. As much as I still love writing in my pretty journals, I always get tired and lazy to ever finish my thoughts and what it was that I was going to write about. So I will now by hip and cool and attempt (for the zillionth time) to maintain an online journal--hopefully I will be able to post at least more than 1 entry.

I would write more now, but the exciting world of contracts reading calls me away. This was enough of a diversion for now--I will be back later! =)